11-15-2006, 09:49 PM
The kid who lived across the street from me was in the same grade as my brother, so they obviously were best friends growing up. When he was about 8 or 9, his older brother (who was 17) was walking down the highway on New Year's and got killed by a drunk driver.
Two weeks later, his father hung himself, so obviously he had a tough time growing up.
I give you this background to explain why he may have molested me. I'm not sure if he did. If he did, I don't remember it, so I guess it didn't happen.
He was a nice enough kid, but he was friends with my older brother, so we never hung out. One day, when I was probably 8 or 9 and he was 11 or 12, I was over his house alone, and we were in his attic.
Butterly Effect flashback later, for some reason I'm naked. He's naked. I'm sweating about this just typing. I vaguely remember him saying something about acting like adults, and that I should lay on my stomach, and he would lay on top of me. Which he did. But that's it. He just lay on top of me stomach on back, and that's it. That was being an adult. I knew it was probably wrong, but more than anything else, I just thought it was stupid.
But I am pretty sure he got this from seeing a picture or walking in on a family member having sex (though he had no father and no brother - so where is he going to do that???), not because he got molested/raped and was now doing the same to me because he didn't enter me. Had he been raped, he probably would have known to put something inside me. Or have me touch some of his stuff. Neither of that happened. Either that, or he did rape me, but I've blocked out everything after him mounting me.
So we had our fill of gay sex, and were basking afterwards, and his mother walked into the attic. I remember trying to hide behind something, but there really wasn't any place to hide. I also remember his mother not being freaked out by seeing her preteen son naked in the attic with his 8 year old neighbor. I think she may have laughed at us, and told us to come downstairs for food.
But, like I said, I'm pretty sure none of the bad stuff happened. Though I dont' want to go to a hypnotist.
Two weeks later, his father hung himself, so obviously he had a tough time growing up.
I give you this background to explain why he may have molested me. I'm not sure if he did. If he did, I don't remember it, so I guess it didn't happen.
He was a nice enough kid, but he was friends with my older brother, so we never hung out. One day, when I was probably 8 or 9 and he was 11 or 12, I was over his house alone, and we were in his attic.
Butterly Effect flashback later, for some reason I'm naked. He's naked. I'm sweating about this just typing. I vaguely remember him saying something about acting like adults, and that I should lay on my stomach, and he would lay on top of me. Which he did. But that's it. He just lay on top of me stomach on back, and that's it. That was being an adult. I knew it was probably wrong, but more than anything else, I just thought it was stupid.
But I am pretty sure he got this from seeing a picture or walking in on a family member having sex (though he had no father and no brother - so where is he going to do that???), not because he got molested/raped and was now doing the same to me because he didn't enter me. Had he been raped, he probably would have known to put something inside me. Or have me touch some of his stuff. Neither of that happened. Either that, or he did rape me, but I've blocked out everything after him mounting me.
So we had our fill of gay sex, and were basking afterwards, and his mother walked into the attic. I remember trying to hide behind something, but there really wasn't any place to hide. I also remember his mother not being freaked out by seeing her preteen son naked in the attic with his 8 year old neighbor. I think she may have laughed at us, and told us to come downstairs for food.
But, like I said, I'm pretty sure none of the bad stuff happened. Though I dont' want to go to a hypnotist.