FU to myself

[GMANN]

Im sending this FU out to myself. I hate the person that I am. Tonight I totally walked away from a fight. 2 fucking assholes were fucking with my boy Mikey while he was drunk.....and me, who always has to be rational, got Mikey, pushed him aside and walked away from it. I hate myself right now. The minute I got in tonight I looked at myself in the mirror and asked what the fuck is wrong with me. I know that all of you will probably say I did the right thing and that it takes a real man to walk away blah blah blah.....but ya know what ??? I think Id sleep alot easier tonight if Id have taken a fucking swing at those fucks.....whether I got my ass kicked or not.....I feel Id sleep alot easier if I just for once not done the smart thing and actually did something stupid.
I look at my status and I see I have " A Better Man than Most" .....and while whichever Mod put that up fpr me thinks I am worth that recognition, and beleive me I do appreciate it, after tonight I dont think I deserve it. Maybe Im just drunk and frustrated.....maybe its beer balls talking.....and like I said maybe I did do the right thing....I just feel like a fucking shmuck right now. So FU to me!!