I've never wanted to commit suicide, but, wished I was dead.
Does that make sense? :clueless:
I understand completely Luna.
I hate hurting people. And I seem to do that alot. Especially people that love me.
Most people don't believe me when I say this.
I was very shy most of my life. I was scared to say anything to be honest, I was always the person people would tell "why don't you talk?". I was a loner, not by choice I guess. But I had no friends till I was about 15. Not one that I could honestly say was my friend. I never had birthday parties or any of that shit. Even when I was popular in HS I was still shy but began breaking out of my shell.
I can't pinpoint when, or where. But one day, I think I was a bit drunk. I was toying with my tape recorder and I just started splurting out random thoughts. It really got me to thinking, I believe I spent 7 hours babbling into that microphone. Slowly after that I adopted the mantra "fuck it". Never be afraid to say it, never be worried to try something, just fuckin do it. What's the worst that can happen in most cases, if you really think about it?
That coupled with my creativity and being what I feel is intelligent has spawned what you see here today.
I do hate the rep that I have about being a bitter person at times or that I hate a lot. I honestly have hated maybe a handful of people throughout my over 2 year span on the boards. I just am completely honest, brutally some would say and I just call people out on shit when I see them being two faced or dishonest, etc. I just can't let it slide, it is the way I am.
I think my sig quote explains how I feel on the subject.
Quote:I never fucked anybody over in my life, who didn't have it comin' to him, you got that?
All I have in this world is my balls, and my word, and I don't break 'em for no one.
Yay Goaty :thumbs-up:
Luna, that makes perfect sense.
Luna, Jack, Metal :loveya:
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Quote:Never be afraid to say it, never be worried to try something, just fuckin do it. What's the worst that can happen in most cases, if you really think about it?
Amazing words from the mind of an amazing man. I've adopted that way of thinking a few years back. Never be afraid. Being scared only makes you miss out on some wonderful opportunities.
Sometimes I will take vicodines for menstrual cramps when an aspirin will do just as well...(well...not just AS well...but, you get the idea). :-D
I used to take about 8 halcion (sleeping) pills just to get stoned on them. The best part was trying to fight the sleep off. I'd be sitting there watching TV with double vision. :crackhead:
i hate jack and hope his fingers rot and fall off
Quote:Sometimes I will take vicodines for menstrual cramps
where is your pharmacy Luna :lookatme: :-D
I was addicted to Dilaudid for awhile earlier this year.
I was addicted to alot of other drugs for a few years when I was around 20. :-(
But a good friend gave her time and love to help me. :-)
I definitely read more than I post. I'm more of an observer, I like watching people and how they react to various situations, but don't always feel like taking part in it. I'm creative but not creative enough to think of witty replies all the time. But you guys always make me laugh!
:loveya: most of you guys. I really don't dislike anyone on here.
(I understand what you're saying Luna. I went through a tough time a while back when I was still living at home.)
I have a little buddha belly. Just a lil one.
Most people never get my sarcasm. And honestly, I don't care. There's a few people that do, and they're the ones that get me.
I have a different set of rules for myself & for others
Quote:I just am completely honest, brutally
i understand. luna, you sound like a blast. i'm totally into that.. honest.
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak
But I think you're wrong
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed
I can't be sure
I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared
I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
I think I'm just scared that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem
I'm feeling
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
I am still pissed at slash.
SLASH is scared of me. :-(