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Cause I owe it to all of you - Printable Version +- CDIH (https://www.cdih.net/cdih) +-- Forum: General Discussion and Entertainment (https://www.cdih.net/cdih/forumdisplay.php?fid=4) +--- Forum: The Pit (https://www.cdih.net/cdih/forumdisplay.php?fid=9) +--- Thread: Cause I owe it to all of you (/showthread.php?tid=10975) |
Cause I owe it to all of you - GonzoStyle - 12-28-2005 I have been getting all kinds of guilt trips and ridicule, etc. I figured the way I left was kinda short and nasty on my part. After much talk to some mods, keyser in particular I felt I owed the mods an explanation. Then after some pushing from fbd he convinced me I owed you all as much. So even though I now open myself up to ridicule, whatever, I have told most of my deepest secrets here, whats another one. Quote:I apologize, maybe I just need some time I dunno. I'm just not in a proper place right now, theres something wrong with me, I dunno what. I'm just angry constantly or sad, always to an extreme lately, i'm even feeling suicidal at times, though theres no way i'd probably do it. I dunno what it is, bi-polar, insanity, schizophrenia, whatever it is. I just feel forced if I keep on posting. I also think its unfair to think I just gave up, I am still online, I am always on aim and you all have my number. I didnt wanna post a goodbye cause well I didnt wanna go the lame route and honestly it was just kinda spur of the moment and in haste but its been building up. Furthermore, I am not doing this for attention, a cry for help or anything like that. Those of you that know me, know that I keep shit pretty much to myself and don't complain except to 1 or 2 people here, once in a while. I only did this because like I said, I felt I owed you all an explanation after several members convinced me of it, wether you ridicule me or not is your right and I expect it anyway. So don't feel like you have to IM me or Call me and offer any advice or talk to me about my situation, it's either gonna be boring or generic advice anyway, so lets save the uncomfortable conversations. Otherwise you all know my aim and most of you have my #, like i said, I aint goin ghost. - TheGMANN - 12-28-2005 I just wanna grab the big lug and give him a big ol hug and pinch his rosey red cheeks. - diceisgod - 12-28-2005 this is where crack or jesus can make things really, really interesting. - Hoon - 12-28-2005 Quote:Like I said I am either fuckin angry to the point I wanna fuckin crush someones sjull in i'm not nitpicking but.... do you really want your suicide note to have typo's? - The Sleeper - 12-28-2005 just get a hooker. that'll solve everything - Gooch - 12-28-2005 i guess this really means i won't get my Spiderman DVD. ![]() - The Jays - 12-28-2005 its gonna be up to me and hedcold to bring the funny to CDIH radio now - Keyser Soze - 12-28-2005 we're waiting. - Black Lazerus - 12-29-2005 so who had gonzo in the deathpool? when i get back from vacation i am caling someone, to find out wtf is going on - Arpikarhu - 12-29-2005 seeing as how you havent had a clue for years, i dont believe there is anyone you can call or you would have done it before. - Arpikarhu - 12-29-2005 i feel bad about my previous post. sorry. - Black Lazerus - 12-29-2005 ^people he hates... i thought he asked you to leave - Arpikarhu - 12-29-2005 see? no clue. if you had been payiong attention, he and i settled our differences. we are in love again. try reading the board every once in a while. clueless. - Black Lazerus - 12-29-2005 I don't think his making up with you was sincere. - diceisgod - 12-29-2005 where's the link to the kook's blog? - Arpikarhu - 12-29-2005 Black Lazerus Wrote:I don't think his making up with you was sincere. proving once again that you are without a clue - The Jays - 12-29-2005 i blame danked for exposing the leader to marijuana. - Danked - 12-29-2005 Everyone's doing it. C'mon.... don't you want to be cool or do you want to be a square for the rest of your life? - The Jays - 12-29-2005 yes, but you're supposed to build some tolerance first! i bet you gave him the haze before weening him onto it with the dro! now look at him, a paranoid delusional shell of himself! - OAS - 12-31-2005 Bye Gonzo! Trust me, life away from the board is paradise. There's no Arpi out here. What could be better than that? CDIH: New Home, Same 11 Assholes It won't be much longer before Arpi is all alone to talk to himself here. That should work very well with his playing with himself. Happy New Year all. Gonzo, it was a hoot! Peace! |