05-13-2004, 09:35 AM
I'm all fucked up mentally anyway, so don't compare your thoughts to mine.
But I waited to watch this, and at about 4 AM last night I finally did. And what did I feel? Nothing.
Got what I guess is a good night's rest these days, went to work, and watched the video again at work. Why? Dunno...it was there. Still no feeling. No emotion, watching some guy getting his head cut off. Hearing him scream, watching the knife cut through his flesh. Nothing.
Maybe it's because I've seen too many Faces Of Death videos? After watching people getting eaten by lions and Budd Dwyer blowing his brains out, government executions, that beheading video with the Russians killing the rebel dude, this isn't anything I haven't seen before. I'm desensitized. I've seen this already, just different actors and a different plot.
Every day I get angrier and angrier that we're in Iraq. Jays, you nailed it when you said I'm angry. I am. But talk of Iraq opens up a million questions, questions we don't want answered. Why Iraq, and not Saudi Arabia? Why was money diverted from rebuilding Afghanistan to attacking Iraq? And more, much more...
And when I see people supporting, apologizing for our government that got us into this mess, that took us to war for no good reason...yeah, I'm angry. How can you support this? These people have so much blood on their hands, so many lives, how aren't they being hanged for treason?
But I waited to watch this, and at about 4 AM last night I finally did. And what did I feel? Nothing.
Got what I guess is a good night's rest these days, went to work, and watched the video again at work. Why? Dunno...it was there. Still no feeling. No emotion, watching some guy getting his head cut off. Hearing him scream, watching the knife cut through his flesh. Nothing.
Maybe it's because I've seen too many Faces Of Death videos? After watching people getting eaten by lions and Budd Dwyer blowing his brains out, government executions, that beheading video with the Russians killing the rebel dude, this isn't anything I haven't seen before. I'm desensitized. I've seen this already, just different actors and a different plot.
Every day I get angrier and angrier that we're in Iraq. Jays, you nailed it when you said I'm angry. I am. But talk of Iraq opens up a million questions, questions we don't want answered. Why Iraq, and not Saudi Arabia? Why was money diverted from rebuilding Afghanistan to attacking Iraq? And more, much more...
And when I see people supporting, apologizing for our government that got us into this mess, that took us to war for no good reason...yeah, I'm angry. How can you support this? These people have so much blood on their hands, so many lives, how aren't they being hanged for treason?