Home | Search | FAQ
Displaying 1-15 of 15 messages in this thread. |
| Posted By | Discussion Topic: FU to nightmares | ||||
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| MamA CaZ | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 11:02 AM |    | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Jan. 01  | You know... I'm fine during the day (well not *EXACTLY* fine, but doing better) I keep myself busy, keep the TV off only to check it every now & then in hope of any postitive updates.. Then I wear myself out (no more naps with the baby in the afternoon) THINKING i would easily fall asleep from exhaustion... and then the *thoughts* begin.. I'm haunted by the image we all experienced & the thoughts in my head are running in circles. What was it like for those poor people. Did they suffer? Was there any way they could have been saved? Are we safe? Will we be attacked again? Are there people still trapped & if so are THEY suffering? What can I do to help? How will this WAR change our world? Good? or Bad? over & over. And i TRY not to think.. but you know how it is.. I don't know, is anyone else experiencing this?  "you will never be forgotten" | ||||
| MomYou'dLikeToF' | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 12:53 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Sep. 01 | I know exactly how you feel. I'm at work during the day, and I know "fine" is not the right description, but at least it feels a little bit normal. But I have the same problem at night when I try to fall asleep. Worrying about what will happen, remembering what happened, thinking about my kids' future. Mostly though I've been thinking about my neighbor. I can see her house from my deck, the lights are always on. She has a 2 week old baby. I don't know her that well and I didn't know her husband too well, but I would give anything to have him return home. I don't know if it's just because she lives so close to me, but for whatever reason I could cry everytime I think about her. This is supposed to be a happy time in her life. I did just find out that her husband was found, and as her mom put it, we will have closure...unline so many others who are waiting at home, praying for a miracle. I also think about all the innocent people in the Arab world who may be effected. Not all those people are evil, and many in horrible situations. I read somewhere the words of a teacher in Afghanistan - she said that every night children in her country go to bed hungry, and she said let the U.S. bomb us so we can just get it over with. That breaks my heart as well. And now imagine they are just waiting to get bombed. So I think about that, and I think about us getting bombed, and I worry about how we will all survive. Does anyone remember what you felt like last Monday before this happened? I can't remember not having a knot in my stomach. I can't remember not feeling this overwhelming sadness for all the people who have lost someone. I also can't remember not worrying constantly about what will happen. I can't remember looking at the airplanes flying overhead without wondering where they were going to wind up. MamA CaZ, I hope you're ok, and I hope you know you're not alone, but I can understand if you feel like you are. God Bless everyone who is hurting and grieving and trying to make sense out of this. | ||||
| sykopathchik Hey... Buckaroo! Yes, everyone knows I type in a unique manner. No need to comment. | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 3:58 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Mar. 01 | Yeah ma c i heaR you bebe ... i get up in the middle of the nighT n juSt im Up cant explain it and i fall Out watchinG tv and wakE up to iT i think tonight The tV is goin to be shut off aLL nighT..... hOwever i feeL GuilT watching somthinG eleS cant explian it bUt i dOo ...i canot get a good night slEEp i think allot are habing this proB too baybE ... (pSSt i toLD ya to BuY onE of "thoSe "toyZ helpS to havE a nicE o to calM you down . smilinG :) :) eh well whatever it takes to fall asleeP right :) | ||||
| Shelle Bink True star of the celebrity softball game: the redhead in section 101. | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 9:41 PM | | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Jul. 01 | Caz, I know what you mean. I can only offer an ear ((ok an eye)) to hear/see what you need to vent out. And I've been having those nightmares for about a week now... my only wish is to wake up ...  I'm not letting them think they've won, If they think it's over, I'll keep this going til the end, This has only just begun | ||||
| MamA CaZ | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 10:51 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Jan. 01 | thank you guys so much for your kind thoughts.. I'm alright... I'm much luckier than a lot of people out there, and i am taking this tragedy as another reason to love life while you are living it.. its a shame we have to learn this way. "you will never be forgotten" | ||||
| IrishAlkey Chucky Official OA.com Homo CUNT ROCKETTE Look who's laughing now, fuckers!!! Is It In Yet? JYD-4-LIFE [Sarcasm]Subzero316 fan since day one!!1!![/Sarcasm] "my mod powers are on temporary hiatus" This status is sponsored by: P®oJë©T M@¥hέm | posted on 09-18-2001 @ 11:20 PM | | |||
| O&A Board Veteran Registered: Aug. 01 | Yeah mama, it's almost like I've forgotten everything that was happening before all this started. Any petty fights and arguments I was having with people aren't important anymore. And anything that seemed important doesn't really seem that way anymore. The whole dynamic of our lives has changed and it's rough to deal with. We'll all get through it together though, love ya Mama. | ||||
| sykopathchik Hey... Buckaroo! Yes, everyone knows I type in a unique manner. No need to comment. | posted on 09-20-2001 @ 6:35 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Mar. 01 | HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FU to these nightmares.. MA C hada bring this back up ! its just geting worse . now all freinds army men are being sent here and there .. saying there good byE hopefuLLy thats us freinds n family will be able to coNgratuglaTE theM when its all ovER the good byes and tears shed happy for them to fight n soo sad for them to come back .. the thoughts oF my freinds jusst in soo much pain and soo much tears kills me ..ThE things that go threw my head when im Just layin there aLL aloNe just going insane MMM ma C can i have sum MorE of the * A * 's Pretty pleasE Just cant belive this is stiLL all reaL i doNo when this might end i cant stand these thought GRRRRRRAOOOOOOORRRRRR hada vent soRRy ! | ||||
| alyssajones | posted on 09-20-2001 @ 7:01 PM | | |||
| Hanger-On Registered: Sep. 01 | i thought i was the only one. i sleep and picture planes crashing and i feel the buildings falling around me. it is terrible. i am fine during the day, but at night--i can't stop the visions. I don't think i have slept soundly since it all happened. As terrible as this sounds--i am glad i am not alone in this gripping thing at night. Will we ever be okay? It's not who you love, but how. | ||||
| DR. Buster Hymen | posted on 09-20-2001 @ 7:55 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Oct. 00 | Hey Guys, Are things starting to get better?? My nightmares have started since "Standing Down" and letting my guard down from last week. It's something that I have dealt with throughout my career (never this bad, though). It's important to talk this out-for EVERYONE!! If it doesn't start to get better, there are ALOT of Professionals who are available for free care. Please take advantage of them!! This sort of Psychological trauma can be devastating if not treated early. Let me know if you need some help. DOC Buster TO THE GUYS IN "THE HOLE": I'M WITH YOU DR. Buster Hymen [email protected] | ||||
| The Zoloft | posted on 09-21-2001 @ 12:15 AM | | |||
| Hanger-On Registered: Dec. 00 | I'm with you as well with nightmares. My brain won't shut off, won't blacken out the images for just a few hours of sleep. I kept the television on 24 hours for at least 3 days with the continuous news coverage last week. Although it didn't help trying to fall asleep with the news and images right there, I was afraid to turn it off. Afraid I'd miss a warning, afraid that it wasn't done with. Thoughts of those who died run through my head as well, wondering if they suffered, hoping it wasn't for long and wondering especially if they could have known that they were dying for their country....if they thought it was a freak accident or if they knew within seconds of their life ending that it was ending because of a terrorist attack. I'm sorry if I brought anymore disturbing thoughts to this thread, but appreciate the outlet to vent. Peaceful rests to everyone. It's the simple people surrounding us in a time of need that are the angels and the heros as well. Hug and kiss your spouse, parent or child any chance you get. Don't go to bed mad, don't leave the house angry, don't lose patience with your kids....we now know that there may not be a second chance. Please be safe; love and be loved and help keep the peace.  "Don't ever underestimate the psycho factor in my head" -- Opie | ||||
| sykopathchik Hey... Buckaroo! Yes, everyone knows I type in a unique manner. No need to comment. | posted on 09-23-2001 @ 2:43 AM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Mar. 01 | Ahh SOoOO nice i mean i cant belive you guys posted about that stuFF well i doNo it gives me such mixed emotions ya know i mean im only 22 but things get stuck in my head like am i not acting on things like i should in my everyday life and am i taking things for granted .. i mean my heart goes out and my thoughts to all who have lost anyone or now anyone who has lost or if i see anyone i get teary eyed not to hysertics just like jesus . and tonight they specilate they might have tryed to use our very simple plans to drop gas on us or nuclear shit .. and it was stopped ... am i not sopose to miss my ex am i sopse to live in fear and or just suck up that any time we could be hit .. or not listen to the news to find out if were winning a war or loosing more souls more americans so i leave on my stoopid tv n fal out and wake up to cnn i ve never paid soo much attention to all the news in my life .. NoW is that a bad thiNG i mean i dOno.. iwas raised by my mom only and am very independent .. should i not be alone and single and i wrong its just werid questions and the thoughts goo insane and im not beliveing a shrink would heLp ! i dont want oNe .. i dono im goin a bit off here but itt was nice of you al to reply back just more venting i dono when its going to be enouFF soRRy :( :( HOwever i still sleep alone at night and i wake up alone .. and im still okay with that ! cause im doing both ya know ! :( | ||||
| MamA CaZ | posted on 09-23-2001 @ 11:45 AM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Jan. 01 | quote: uhhhhhhhhh heLLO?!?!?! <---------------------------- hehe. thelma... BABY... I love you.. you'll be fine.. you know im here for you to *talk* :::sings::: "Ba ba ba ba ba ba... tracy when im with yeWww" I'm sure i'll see you later <333 "you will never be forgotten" | ||||
| FeelMyFunBags | posted on 09-23-2001 @ 1:02 PM | | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Jan. 01 | Uggghh....I'm sorry to see that so many of us can't sleep. I was really tired last night for some reason and went to bed at like 2:00, which for me is really early. I didn't have a single normal dream...all I had was nightmares about either events that had happened or events that I feared would happen. I haven't had a decent night's sleep since 9/11...I wish we knew something to do that would take this pain away... "I know every one of you, I know the sea of torment, doubt, despair and unbelief." -Walt Whitman USA | ||||
| Jennitalia | posted on 09-23-2001 @ 8:05 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Sep. 00 | I've been having nightmares too, 2-3 different ones every night for the last couple of weeks. Either somebody is trying to kill me or I'm losing somebody. It's nice to know I'm not the only one.  "Like, Mother, it's my life ok...so if i want to live on a beach and walk around naked..." | ||||
| sykopathchik Hey... Buckaroo! Yes, everyone knows I type in a unique manner. No need to comment. | posted on 09-27-2001 @ 7:06 PM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Mar. 01 | F * U man .. BAD ASS FUCKING WEEK and yet cant get anyworse but that we nowhave heard we have to go threw a heart acking day sunday for the mass oF our freind JoSh 25 of canter n fitzgerald who passsed in sept 11th tragic day that i wiLL never forget .... so say somthing to sum god or anyone You want to & say sory for my freind Josh and everyone eles who was lost and sory to familys .. But sunday is my reminder OF hoW muCH HHHHAAAAAATE i have toWArdS these terroist PhucKs ! And the pain and tears and heart break my freinds and i will have to deal with .. WHEN DOES this end or get any beetEr ... god bleSs :( :( :( | ||||
Displaying 1-15 of 15 messages in this thread. |