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| Posted By | Discussion Topic: Death, and how we can move on. (A little long, but please read) | ||||
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| ~FallenAingL~ Unofficial Biggest Whore of OA.com G.O.O.F.B.A.H.G.S. Reaver Strike Battalion Rage Brother #1, Paladin of Hatred Where's my snare? I have no snare in my headphones. | posted on 09-13-2001 @ 11:39 PM |    | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Jun. 01  | As some of you may have noticed, I have not been around the board for about two weeks. Although your first reaction may be to say 'So? Who cares, you tool!?', please hear me out. I really need to share this with everyone here at OA.com what has just transpired in my life. Last week of September 2nd through 8th found me starting college at East Stroudsburg University as a sophomore. It was good to see my friends and to catch up with what happened to them over the summer. College life for me was back in swing and I began to hang out with friends, drink massive amounts of alcohol, and party with many beautiful college girls. Life usually is never very this positive for me, and I relished in my newfound fortune. On Saturday, September 8th 2001, my life was changed forever... permanently and violently. One of my closest friends and allies, Elvin T, was killed in a dispute with a former friend at 12:15... he was shot in the neck. All this was over a measly $40 dollars. One of my greatest friend's life was taken away because of a mere forty dollars. I was devastated... I didn't know what to think or feel, or how to act. Feeling so much anger and rage I wanted to kill my friend's assassin myself. However, that really isn't feasible when the police already have him in custody. I went to his funeral Tuesday morning September 11th, and wept with many of his friends and family. When I arrived home approximately 11:00 AM, I was shocked and amazed as to the spectacle I witnessed on TV. The World Trade Center... beautiful and integral part of New York's skyline... utterly destroyed and leveled. My brain reeled with sickness as I saw the footage of the planes crashing into the WTC as well as then soon after watching them collapse. Death, brushed against my life once again. My father, a former IBM consultant was applying for a new job at Morgan Stanley. For the past two weeks, he was working on projects at home and was repeatedly put off coming into work, his boss citing that, 'We aren't quite ready for you yet, give us a few more days, then you can come into work.' Luck, fate, destiny, or what have you intervened and most likely saved my father's life. He did not go to work. He was not hired yet and was still working at home the time of the crisis. The plane that hit the tower hit just below the offices of Morgan Stanley, creating a inferno that blocked off most of the escape of anyone higher than the blaze. I hardly believe this shit myself... but it is true and I'm still having a hard time coming to grips with it as per what happened earlier today. I was done with classes at East Stroudsburg for the week and was originally planning to stay there for the weekend. However, I was considering going home to pack up my stereo and bring it to my apartment, so this afternoon I did just that and went home. Walking through the door I received some of the worst news of my life. My grandmother, who has always been a loving and caring figure in my life, fell down her basement stairs while carrying up her laundry... fracturing her skull causing massive brain bleeding and swelling. The woman who did everything in her life so selflessly, and with love... was now practically brain dead and in a coma at St. Joseph's Hospital in Clifton NJ. I rushed to the hospital along with my other family members and broke down as I saw her petite, battered frame, lying bloodied in a hospital bed. I sat there for the rest of the day, clutching her hand, praying that she was not suffering. If she was to actually recover, she was certain to have massive brain damage or be in a vegetable like state for the rest of her life. All of my kin were assembled and looked on helplessly as time ticked by, minute-by-minute praying for peace to return to our lives. We all eventually left for the night back home and called it a night. For the past few hours, I have mulled over the twisted, disturbing events that have forced themselves into my life. Filled with hatred, fear, sadness, and grief, throw my thoughts and emotions onto this computer screen hoping to find some sort of solace. By calling and talking to many of my close friends as well as typing and emailing some of my online friends I have come to state of peace. I can't begin to convey how much talking about this with others has eased my pain and made it bearable to carry on. If anyone else is suffering from pain or loss this week, I urge you to pick up the phone and call someone... anyone, you'd be surprised to find that most people actually do give a shit about you. This solution is by no means a perfect one, and chances are... fear, anger, sadness, and other negative emotions will come back into my life. But, however, when it does return I am confident that I will get by with... 'A little help from my friends'. (This means a lot to me, please do not defile it)  Thine In Honor, ~FallenAingL~ "But, for a certainty back then, we loved so many and yet hated so much, we hurt others and hurt ourselves. Yet, even then we ran like the wind, whilst our laughter echoed under cerulean skies..." -Schala 'Kid' Zeal This message was edited by ~FallenAingL~ on 9-13-01 @ 11:42 PM | ||||
| Tequila Fez claims this land in the name of Portugal! Why worry about the train if it never makes it around the tracks?? IrishAlkey wuz here!!! | posted on 09-13-2001 @ 11:47 PM | | |||
| O&A Board Veteran Registered: Jan. 01 | FA I am very sorry to hear about your losses. If there is anything you need or just want to talk you can IM me at oanda1027fm.  A NEW DAY OF INFAMY MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH THE FAMILY & FRIENDS OF LOST ONES | ||||
| TeenSlut | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:00 AM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Apr. 01 | FA, I am so incredibly sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I wish you all the best during this very difficult time in your life.  | ||||
| Buttabean | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:12 AM | | |||
| Hanger-On Registered: Sep. 01 | Dood, I cannot believe you had to go through all this. If you wanna talk, It's Livinndyin(@aol.com). Today, we mourn, tomorrow, YOU mourn..... | ||||
| IrishAlkey Chucky Official OA.com Homo CUNT ROCKETTE Look who's laughing now, fuckers!!! Is It In Yet? JYD-4-LIFE [Sarcasm]Subzero316 fan since day one!!1!![/Sarcasm] "my mod powers are on temporary hiatus" This status is sponsored by: P®oJë©T M@¥hέm | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:25 AM | | |||
| O&A Board Veteran Registered: Aug. 01 | I am so sorry angel. It seems almost too much for one person to be able to bear, but if you say you have come to terms with it all then you are truly a strong and admirable woman. I wish you nothing but the best.  | ||||
| MamA CaZ | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:28 AM | | |||
| Psychopath Registered: Jan. 01 | my deepest condolences to you & your family & your friend's family. its amazing how so many of us are going through the same thing at the same time.. we have each other to talk to & i honestly think this will bond us all as friends... and not "just a message board" be strong... & be well | ||||
| ~FallenAingL~ Unofficial Biggest Whore of OA.com G.O.O.F.B.A.H.G.S. Reaver Strike Battalion Rage Brother #1, Paladin of Hatred Where's my snare? I have no snare in my headphones. | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:30 AM | | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Jun. 01 | I appreciate everything that has been said... thank you so much for your support. But Irish... HEY I'M A GUY!!! ;-) Do I come across as a feggit? Damn... =P Thine In Honor, ~FallenAingL~ "But, for a certainty back then, we loved so many and yet hated so much, we hurt others and hurt ourselves. Yet, even then we ran like the wind, whilst our laughter echoed under cerulean skies..." -Schala 'Kid' Zeal | ||||
| Austin The Dark Enforcer/Angry Stoned Pimp G.O.O.F.B.A.H.G.S. New World Order Secret Police Chief Proud Inventor of the "Cream Cheese, Peanut Butter and Jelly" sandwich | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:47 AM | | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Feb. 01 | Im very sorry to hear about everything that happened man. If u wanna talk u know my AIM.  NOBODY. If would like to be adopted by me Click Here If u would like to be adopted by me, I have two slots open in Austin University. Successful Graduates of Austin University: 3 and counting | ||||
| IrishAlkey Chucky Official OA.com Homo CUNT ROCKETTE Look who's laughing now, fuckers!!! Is It In Yet? JYD-4-LIFE [Sarcasm]Subzero316 fan since day one!!1!![/Sarcasm] "my mod powers are on temporary hiatus" This status is sponsored by: P®oJë©T M@¥hέm | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 12:51 AM | | |||
| O&A Board Veteran Registered: Aug. 01 | LOL...like I said, you are a strong woman :) sorry...hope my little blunder made you laugh! Anything to put a smile on our faces now is worth it... | ||||
| ~FallenAingL~ Unofficial Biggest Whore of OA.com G.O.O.F.B.A.H.G.S. Reaver Strike Battalion Rage Brother #1, Paladin of Hatred Where's my snare? I have no snare in my headphones. | posted on 09-14-2001 @ 5:11 PM | | |||
| O&A Board Regular Registered: Jun. 01 | Thanks, Osama... err... Alkie! Thank you all so much! Thine In Honor, ~FallenAingL~ "But, for a certainty back then, we loved so many and yet hated so much, we hurt others and hurt ourselves. Yet, even then we ran like the wind, whilst our laughter echoed under cerulean skies..." -Schala 'Kid' Zeal | ||||
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